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Angel From Montgomery John Prine ( Bonnie Raitt)I am an old woman Named after my mother, My old man is another Child that's grown old If dreams were lightning And thunder were desire This old house would have burnt down A long time ago Make me an angel that flies from Montgomery, Make me a poster of an old rodeo Just give me one thing that I can hold on to, To believe in this livin' is just a hard way to go When I was a young girl I had me a cowboy He weren't much to look at, Just a free ramblin' man. But that was a long time And no matter how I try, The years just flow by Like a broken down dam. Make me an angel that flies from Montgomery, Make me a poster of an old rodeo Just give me one thing that I can hold on to, To believe in this livin' is just a hard way to go There's flies in the kitchen I can hear 'em in there buzzin' And I ain't done nothin' Since I woke up today. How the hell can a person Go to work in the mornin' Come home in the evenin' And have nothin' to say? Make me an angel that flies from Montgomery, Make me a poster of an old rodeo Just give me one thing that I can hold on to, To believe in this livin' is just a hard way to go (Repeat Chorus) lookI will apologize now if any body gets their feathers ruffled. I am in a little turmoil., and the turbulence seems to have stirred some things up. It may or may not follow a sequence. I may even say ****. I am probably gonna use a couple new words I came across recently. I feel I can because I always recognized the definition...I just didn't know the word had been invented. I may refer to the bible....don't correct me please?.....with the proper sc Our single biggest asset as a species is our frontal lobes. Our single greatest weakness as a species is our frontal lobe. We are smart enough to know we are smarter than most animals on the planet. We are so smart we don't need to follow natures rhythms any more....we create artificial substitutes. We are so stupid, we assume we are or can control everything on the planet. But what about the PLANET? Our dumb asses missed the fact that the universe has a rhythm as well. I'm ranting...here it is. We are the youngest weakest species on the planet. We are only superior in our own mind.the time is nigh at hand when we as a species will be forced to admit our misconceptions,....our wrong headed notions. Is any one surprised by that? Its said hundreds of times in the stories on this board...I awakened....I realized that i had been ignorant....I saw things differently...understood differently. Just out of curiosity...how many people do ya think take that mental step in classifying themselves? Remember your Biology:? Big to small.....remember THIS ~Unity to individual....Domain, Kingdom, Phylum, Class, Order, Family, Genus, and Species. Well? How many of ya have grasped where you fit in above the individual....which by the way....taxonomists flipped over a single individual...needing two individuals to confirm a group/species. I digress.... Is it logical to assume that a situation being common in the individuals of the species wont at some time be faced by the species as a whole? That the commonalities in each individuals awakening wont at some point be visited on the species as a whole? I think its highly illogical. If it were logical we wouldn't have species extinction phenomena would we? I need to revisit this....please give it a test drive? Wherever you may think the brilliant minds of our kind got their inspiration, the laws of mathematics and physics have been used to prove just about everything in this physical plane. In fact they are even now proving the Big bang and Intention in our cosmic design. God... They accurately describe behaviors in atoms and solar systems. Einstein came up with one theory that fit everything. E-MC2. The fact that it applies to everything should be some indication for unity i would think. But even if it doesn't...I would think it logical to assume if an atom and a galaxy were both explainable by the formula then every fucking thing in the middle would be too. Further more I would deduce that if the same equation solves all of them, then there must be a similarity between the things. In other words....We predict them the same way...ummm...cuz they ACT the same? all the experiences y'all have had on EP...with your spiritual paths...guess what? Our species will too...and the genus and family and so forth. Oh wait.....ya thought were were It? I don't think so....know why? Cause things behave the same generally speaking. And just because I don't know what those other groups are above me doesn't mean they aren't there....maybe i'm just ignorant? This is offered by an angel....dark angels have worked for millenia fulfilling their task of isolating the spirit into a single complete individual. In short...getting the single soul as lost and isolated as possible. It is after all no coincidence that the acceptance of the Light is referred to as 'Finding God'. Gone are the notions of the past that valued the 'soul' of a people, a nation, a region. The majority of you at some point felt isolated, or at least you accepted a view of yourself as a single identity. Many tools were used to accomplish this. That was the seminal moment that you each began your journey. Recent talk has been about 'ascension' and efforts to heal your world. All is well. What has come about has been by design, what went before also. And so with what will follow.Your world will serve as it must. Your concern should not be for the earth, The True Father has provided. These things have always been known and understood. They have been kept from you until the time of your knowing was before you. Things revealed to you, leaps in your understanding, breakthroughs in science have all been by Grace and Design. ALL of you...are evolving...like the first life on this world evolved and subsequent life after. {I will try to clean that up later folks...bad link} K ..I will have help it appears "Behold Sleepers!! You wake to a fresh dawn upon a strange horizon" 'By Grace alone do we Flourish!' On the Bible and what is not expressed but rather found by those of keen sense A common ex What does it mean to receive it in its Perfection? When you can recognize the Word in every aspect of what you perceive as your universe and realize its characteristics as constant and unshakable you will have received it Perfectly. The Word has the power and by it you can recognize the One Father and see his Light in all things. All is well. Ye are lost to yourselves and the flock but the shepherds watch and weigh each step you take. Love It... Allman Brothers....When you can't find the light, That got you through the cloudy days, When the stars ain't shinin' bright, You feel like you've lost you're way, When those candle lights of home, Burn so very far away, Well you got to let your soul shine, Just like my daddy used to say. (Chorus) He used to say soulshine, It's better than sunshine, It's better than m_onshine, Damn sure better than rain. Hey now people don't mind, We all get this way sometime, Got to let your soul shine, shine till the break of day. I grew up thinkin' that I had it made, Gonna make it on my own. Life can take the strongest man, Make him feel so alone. Now and then I feel a cold wind, Blowin' through my achin' bones, I think back to what my daddy said, He said ";Boy, in the darkness before the dawn:"; (Chorus) Let your soul shine, It's better than sunshine, It's better than moonshine, Damn sure better than rain. Yeah now people don't mind, We all get this way sometimes, Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day. Sometimes a man can feel this emptiness, Like a woman has robbed him of his very soul. A woman too, God knows, she can feel like this. And when your world seems cold, you got to let your spirit take control. (Chorus) Let your soul shine, It's better than sunshine, It's better than m_onshine, Damn sure better than rain. Lord now people don't mind, We all get this way sometimes, Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day. Oh, it's better than sunshine, It's better than moonshine, Damn sure better than rain. Yeah now people don't mind, We all get this way sometimes, Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day.~~~ Warren Haynes RelationshipsI really don’t know what my deal is. I Know…hell I even wrote about dropping toxic stuff…Why can’t I just move on? Let whatever course of events happen as they are intended? Why do I look at the connections I had and have as lasting forever? Because they are all a part of what I am now? It seems like all my fears of my youth are coming home now…finally justified. I kept a wall between me and everyone else for too long because I either couldn’t feel, lacked an affinity or compassion, or just didn’t care. Just a very select few did I let inside the castle walls and they never made it into the keep. That certainly doesn’t mean that they were unimportant. I believe that I cared about them as much as I was capable at the time. I didn’t let anyone too close because I feared treachery…being hurt by the only ones close enough to reach me. The ones I cared for. I see now that when I feared they would, I was impervious. I am more trusting now and feel the blades as they plunge deep. I really am trying. I can see my timeline and progress with perfect clarity. I became aware of and accepted the presence of Divinity…thus putting an option on the table. Began to awake I began to manage anger and in so doing connected with emotions that I was unaware of My world as I knew it crumbled like a house of cards as did my self image…leaving me faced with a difficult choice…what I now knew to be a sham or an option. I felt Despair~the fire of my Spirit rose up and I chose. I learned to forgive….what that means. I shifted my focus to now and tomorrow. Pieces of my old life were taken away and cared for. What I had served in the past was tended to…my plate was made empty. The tool was being prepared I was learning to trust something inside me. I began to like what was inside me. I began to look at others with different eyes. Eyes of acceptance and tolerance I began to develop an affinity for others. A compassion and awareness. I began to view others from their perspective, not mine. I developed an understanding. I began to actively work at non-attachment. I learned better ways to process emotions that welled up. I felt my purpose was near… I was shown a glimpse of our unity. I studied collective awareness and the Universal Mind. My connection to Spirit strengthened. I begin to work towards a common goal…for the betterment of all. I use what skills I have been given.. I grasp what Love is. I accept it. My purpose is now fully revealed. I am happier than I have been in my entire life. Most days…not every one…I feel a peace and serenity that I always longed for and never knew. Why then does she make me feel so bad? I understand the hurt she must feel as she sees me working on me…on others…with no improvement to US. I think you eat an elephant a bite at a time…outside in. I think I am doing that. I don’t know how to tell her that I am beyond what I was, what we were to each other. Or that by putting her first I shirk the thing I am here to do. I want and try to show her a brighter path…a better way. Her feelings for me cloud her senses…she cannot let go of the past. I tried to show her by example…blaze a trail for her to follow…but as I move forward, she feels worse. Some days she hates me and never wants to see me again….then a week later she calls crying because I haven’t talked to her. Ten years and I DO love her. The fine things I admired are still there…I know how to see them. We are not the people we were. Am I ashamed that I might have picked her because of issues I saw that she was unaware of? I don’t know. I never really played her…I just knew where the buttons were in case~ I love her for who she is and feel gratitude for helping me to be HERE…I also feel responsible and guilty for helping her get to where she is. She is trying…and I see that some seeds planted are beginning to sprout. I feel that we together hold each other back. We are both happier when the other isn’t around it seems like, or at least every time we are around each other for more than a few minutes the mood turns sour.. I want so much to see her find a better place in her mind and heart….Peace. I really try to live the campers creed...'"Leave the campground BETTER than when you found it!" I don’t know why its easier to deal with a strangers problems rather than your own. I think sometimes it would be easier if I just let the demon back in and walked away from it all. I’m really not that important…there are others to bear the burden. But that’s the rub isn’t it? I can’t really…go back. I could never regain the blissful ignorance from before. I don’t know how much longer we can endure this.. Dream or Not?Last week, I was dozing off on the couch and in that moment where you aren't quite asleep, but no longer awake I felt teeth sink into the flesh around my left eye. I fought myself back awake and grabbed a couple of obsidian chunks. As I dozed back off I felt the teeth again, but I thought of the obsidian I held in each hand. It seemed as if a gray colored sheer curtain were dropping over me, clouding my vision a bit. As it did so, I felt the grip of the teeth loosening in my flesh. I sensed that whatever bit me was still there but could no longer see me. I then flashed to several scenes...I could watch what was happening without being noticed. Later...{I believe that I was asleep} I am walking out of my workplace. I am very happy... As I walk through the overhead door, I hear myself saying that I love my life. As i leave the building, my awareness is expanding from the limits of the building...then to the space outside. Very quickly it expands to the horizon...I think that 'I am all of this'..then I feel it go up and beyond what I can see. I am surprised at first...as I look around I notice that my surroundings are different...that I feel my body is different. I seem to be in a place where everything is grayish....colorless. There is a light behind me casting a silohuette of my body...it is larger....as I look at it I see something I think are wings. As I think wings...the silohuette spreads massive wings ...like a parrot stretching...I feel the muscles in my back making this happen. I begin to walk around what looks to be an abandonded warehouse...I am looking at an empty crate when I see a ball of light go past me left to right. I look to the left, curious. I see another coming toward me...I think I must move. I duck around a wall, like an empty room, then look back. I see many more balls going past, very close together. I think I am under attack. I wait for a break and dash out because I am trapped where I am. As I run I wonder if I can make a ball and shoot back...I do. the balls coming at me immediately stop. I stand looking in the direction they were coming from...soon I see five maybe six people walking around a corner.. They come in through a collapsed wall of the building. I walk towards them and they nod to me. They sit around in a scattered manner, talking about doing something tonight...Planning what they will do, what is going on. I am standing next to the leaderof the group as they talk...They look at me sometimes as if they dont know what they should say in front of me. They dont trust me or I them...Now they are leaving...but I don't go with them, but they expected that I would. Now I am at a house where there is trouble...I walk into the house...there are lots of people...I say "Every body out"....they are telling me about the situation, but I know something is evil here. I say 'OUT NOW'. Everyone is out...I see a small closet door....I open the door and step into the room...it is a small closet. As I enter I am attacked. There is evil noise{wailing} in the room.. I am moaning...I feel ill. I am aware now of my physical body....it moans too. I want to wake up but I can't. I cant think...I want to run get away...I am afraid. I look at tthe wall opposite the door The feeling is coming from here...There is something on the wall but I cant see what....it is blurred. When I try to look at them closer, the feeling is stronger and the noise in my head is louder. I think it is hopeless and I cant get out... I feel so bad....I remember that this started with me being happy...saying I Love my life....as I think Love, i see the outline of a face on the wall, that i didnt see before. The unpleasantness is around me but not through me any more...the face knows I see it. It looks at me and wails louder. I am excited...I am shielded now. I look at the face and think LOVE...it reels as if I punched it. I think again i AM Love....the wailing stops...I see now that it is not the wall from which this feeling is coming. There is a covering over the wall...now a corner is starting to peel...I grab the corner and rip it off the wall....I run from the house dragging this thing...the people see me go.....they are yelling 'Burn it'...I take flight still dragging this thing...I am at a warehouse..there is more of this covering....I drop the evil piece onto the rest...I say "Burn It'...It burns......Workers rush to put out the blaze...they are worried about losing everything in the place...All that burns is the evil piece...the flames are extinguished....it is gone but what was under it is undamaged. Bellamy Brothers....Old HippieHe turned 35 last Sunday In his hair he found some gray But he still ain't changed his lifestyle He likes it better the old way. So he grows a little garden In the backyard by the fence He's consuming what he's growing Nowadays in self defense He gets out there in the twilight zone Sometimes when it just don't make no sense. He gets off on country music 'Cause disco left him cold And he's got young friends and a new way But he's just to frickin old. And he dreams at night of Woodstock And the day John Lennon died How the music made him happy And the silence made him cry Yeah, he thinks of John sometimes And he has to wonder why. Chorus: 'Cause he's an old hippie And he don't know what to do Should he hang on to the old Should he grab on to the new. He's and old hippie This new life is just a bust He ain't trying to change nobody He's just trying real hard to adjust. He was sure back in the sixties That everyone was hip Then they sent him off to vietnam On his senior trip. And they forced him to become a man While he was still a boy And behind each wave of tragedy He waited for the joy Now this world may change around him But he just can't change no more. Chorus: 'Cause he's an old hippie And he don't know what to do Should he hang on to the old Should he grab on to the new. He's and old hippie This new life is just a bust He ain't trying to change nobody He's just trying real hard to adjust. Well, he stays away a lot now From the parties and the clubs And he's thinking while he's jogging round Sure is glad he quit the hard drugs. 'Cause him and his kind Get more endangered everyday And pretty soon the species Will just up and fade away Like the smoke from that torpedo Just up and fade away. Chorus: 'Cause he's an old hippie And he don't know what to do Should he hang on to the old Should he grab on to the new. He's and old hippie This new life is just a bust He ain't trying to change nobody He's just trying real hard to adjust. Yeah, he ain't trying to change nobody He's just trying real hard to adjust... Invocation for Spiritual Cleansing and ProtectionThis prayer can be used whenever you feel necessary. Using this will help you connect and strengthen your direct link to the Divine Spiritual Resources within you and all around you. I ask the BAND OF MERCY to please remove all lost souls and unclean spirits that may be attached to, affecting or influencing me (or for another person, insert name), my family, my house and property and all that I have ownership of. I ask this through the Power and Presence of DIVINE LOVE and I thank you. I ask the appropriate angelic protectors to please remove all negative entities and energies that may be attached to, affecting or influencing me, my family, my house and property and all that I have ownership of. I ask this through the Power and Presence of the DIVINE LOVE and I thank you. I ask the ARCHANGEL MICHAEL and his legions to please remove all negative entities, energies, thought forms, and influences that may be attached to or affecting me, my family, my house and property and all that I have ownership of. I ask this through the Power and Presence of DIVINE LOVE and I thank you. I now ask THE HOLY SPIRIT to please guide and protect me. Please dissolve and disperse any and all remaining fearful, negative or residual energies and replace it with your unlimited light, love and grace. I also request this for my family, my house and property and all that I have ownership of. I ask this through the Power and Presence of DIVINE LOVE and I thank you. Ok...Alright....I get the point wholeheartedly. I should not have assumed I was clear and even so ...I should not have teased the bear as it were. I realize my purpose...and grasp that there is no room for ego, vanity or pride. help the ones put in front of me...wholeheartedly and enthusiastically. Thank you for the deep understanding of clairsentience I was shown. And everything else..... I will recommit myself to the work at hand. I know something about duality..I get that faith mustn't waiver. I believe that at some point you must be wholly on one side of the fence. I will turn toward the Light and walk in that direction every day. I cannot promise that I will not stumble~ The lesson was hard learned, but I am weak. Strengthen me in your Grace so that I may do what is required of me? Thank you Michael and Raphael for delivering me from the torment~ Forgive me my disgressions. I look to the Universe to instruct me in how to proceed...How to lay my Darkness by the wayside... Only in Love will we be delivered to the All The Prayer of Thanksgiving "We give thanks to You! Every soul and heart is lifted up to You, undisturbed name, honored with the name 'God' and praised with the name 'Father', for to everyone and everything (comes) the fatherly kindness and affection and love, and any teaching there may be that is sweet and plain, giving us mind, speech, (and) knowledge: mind, so that we may understand You, speech, so that we may expound You, knowledge, so that we may know You. We rejoice, having been illuminated by Your knowledge. We rejoice because You have shown us Yourself. We rejoice because while we were in (the) body, You have made us divine through Your knowledge. "The thanksgiving of the man who attains to You is one thing: that we know You. We have known You, intellectual light. Life of life, we have known You. Womb of every creature, we have known You. Womb pregnant with the nature of the Father, we have known You. Eternal permanence of the begetting Father, thus have we worshiped Your goodness. There is one petition that we ask: we would be preserved in knowledge. And there is one protection that we desire: that we not stumble in this kind of life." What's Going on--Marvin GayeMother, mother There's too many of you crying Brother, brother, brother There's far too many of you dying You know we've got to find a way To bring some lovin' here today - Ya Father, father We don't need to escalate You see, war is not the answer For only love can conquer hate You know we've got to find a way To bring some lovin' here today Picket lines and picket signs Don't punish me with brutality Talk to me, so you can see Oh, what's going on What's going on Ya, what's going on Ah, what's going on In the mean time Right on, baby Right on Right on Father, father, everybody thinks we're wrong Oh, but who are they to judge us Simply because our hair is long Oh, you know we've got to find a way To bring some understanding here today Oh Picket lines and picket signs Don't punish me with brutality Talk to me So you can see What's going on Ya, what's going on Tell me what's going on I'll tell you what's going on - Uh Right on baby Right on baby Little WingWell she's walking through the clouds With a circus mind that's running round Butterflies and zebras And moonbeams and fairy tales That's all she ever thinks about Riding with the wind. When I'm sad, she comes to me With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free It's alright she says it's alright Take anything you want from me, Anything. Fly on little wing, Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing Jimi said it...Down the street you can hear her scream you're a disgrace As she slams the door in his drunken face And now he stands outside And all the neighbors start to gossip and drool He cries oh, girl you must be mad, What happened to the sweet love you and me had? Against the door he leans and starts a scene, And his tears fall and burn the garden green And so castles made of sand fall in the sea, eventually A little Indian brave who before he was ten, Played war games in the woods with his Indian friends And he built up a dream that when he grew up He would be a fearless warrior Indian Cheif Many moons past and more the dream grew strong until Tomorrow he would sing his first war song and fight his first battle But something went wrong, surprise attack killed him in his sleep that night And so castles made of sand melts into the sea, eventually There was a young girl, who's heart was a frown Cause she was crippled for life, And she couldn't speak a sound And she wished and prayed she could stop living, So she decided to die She drew her wheelchair to the edge of the shore And to her legs she smiled you wont hurt me no more But then a sight she'd never seen made her jump and say Look a golden winged ship is passing my way And it really didn't have to stop, it just kept on going... And so castles made of sand slips into the sea, eventually Enough is when?When is it time to upgrade? When are the things and people that surround you outdated? I admit that I like what i am accustomed to. I don't particularly care that my microwave doesn't have a 'Popcorn' button or that you actually need to think about how long it will take to reheat your leftovers. It doesn't really matter that my toaster only toasts two slices and if you want those dark you will need to run them through twice. Who cares that the television is as big as the washing machine and never seems to tune in perfectly to channels 35 through 48? I think I probably know just as many people who possess just as many quirks as my appliances. Are they bad people? Do they need a trip to the psych department for a tuneup? Of course not....They are, after all, just people and like everything else can be found in all shapes, sizes and states of disrepair. I find that a bit of variety in everything tends to keep things fresh. Take a head of lettuce as a really weird example. ( ..not really sure where this is going...) Maybe you are one of the exclusive folks thats capable of using a whole head of lettuce. If you are I say BRAVO.....!!! Me, though, I just seem to get about halfway. There it sits in the crisper, being crisp. For a while anyway. And then one day I open the refrigerator door and instantly think, "How OLD is that Lettuce !!!" It's really not the lettuce's fault. When I put it there it had every intention of doing its job. Time seemed to get away from both of us. I was busy with everyday things and it was locked away in my crisper, kept in the dark and unable to grow. Sure there were lots of sandwiches it could have supplied had I not had it bound in my servitude, but who would want it now? When is it time to upgrade? When people become toxic to your current state of existence. Are you missing the 'y' to Joy and Happy? Do you get that queasy feeling when you look at your caller id? Do you need to pick and choose conversational topics oh so carefully? Is it their fault that they're toxic? Of course not, nor is it yours. People grow and change everyday. Every new experience alters us ever-so-slightly. What you need to thrive now is not what you will need ten years from now and it certainly wasn't what you needed ten years ago...Life, like a battlefield, is a fluid environment. Ever-changing.... What to do with toxic folks? Hmmm.....Love them certainly. If you knew them for any length of time you likely need to thank them for helping to get you 'HERE'. You could try explaining that you have moved on and your moving on will allow them to move forward as well. (... and if that works let me know your exact technique!) Toxic things are much easier. Throw them out on bulk trash day. Twenty bucks and an afternoon trip to the thriftstore and you will likely find what you need-or get close anyway. Don't count out what you discard. I have never saw a crystal ball that worked and who knows what tomorrow holds. My toaster for instance...I have purchased it twice from the same Goodwill !!!!! Robert FulghumI recently ran upon an old book and thought this applied... All I really need to know about how to live and what to do and how to be I learned in Kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sandpile at Sunday school. These are the things I learned: Share everything. Play fair. Don't hit people. Put things back where you found them. Clean up your own mess. Don't take things that aren't yours. Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody. Wash your hands before you eat. Flush. Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you. Live a balanced life- learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some. Take a nap every afternoon. When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together. Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the Styrofoam cup: The roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that. Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup- they all die. So do we. And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned- the biggest word of all- LOOK. Everything you need to know is in there somewhere. The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation. Ecology and politics and equality and sane living. Robert Fulghum; All I Really Need to Know I learned in Kindergarten
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